How do you ever cut out all the distractions of this world, and find the serenity and peace to be able to write?
I had this conversation with a friend recently; I was told, in no uncertain terms, that I must simply be stronger and block out the distractions, not let people, things, situations get in my way. OK, problem solved then.
Back on Planet Earth, I am a feather, being blown this way and that by the hurricane that is living now. Positive becomes negative, negative becomes positive. Pollyanna, the storybook character, laughs at me and hugs me, I am knocked down by arch-Narcissist X, have nuclear-strength obstacles put in my way because I want to do Y and Z and it’s not allowed. I am sick, then well, then fragile, then strong, then emotional, then not, then angry, then not. I am clear-thinking, then pissed off with people and politics. I rage internally against the politics of the UK, then I stuff down those feelings and turn away to nature and dismiss it all as something I cannot control.
I’ve gone back into my writing world, my only safe place, to a story that I love and have been working on for a few years. It’s often taken a back seat because the big fat life gets in the way; being a mother, dealing with squabbling siblings, finding solutions, listening to bruised egos, vulnerable young people, hurting adults, tired and hard-done-by friends, and then there’s the food shopping and the bill paying and the ‘to do’ lists ad-finitem.
All Fall Down is my novel After Rafaela reinvented. It’s a nastier story, hasn’t got the soft lilting undulations of the After Rafaela story. It’s has not been finished yet but here is a working cover which will be tinkered with.
All Fall Down is a murder mystery where London solicitor Ellis Yannick is brought in to solve the mystery of Rafaela Green’s death. There are plenty of shady characters on the scene and each one has their own agenda that’s hidden beneath the surface. All that sounds unoriginal doesn’t it, but there is so much more to this story than that unoriginal storyline. Read it and see. Ellis’s lack of experience in detective work is not matched by his determination to solve the crime that destroyed his friend Luisa Green, Rafaela’s mother’s life. Ellis Yannick is hugely vulnerable himself. He’s no cop or detective but he’s got one skill up his sleeve, he’s a skilled at delving down into human nature and exposing the evil wherever he sees it, with not much training in the process to his name, other than his work as a solicitor.
Ellis is a favourite fictional character of mine. Maybe he can help me clear my mind so I don’t fall down.